I just need a day to recuperate. I have perfect attendance in all my classes (so far) and I did this on purpose for a day like today. I have been sick since Saturday night and the levels of severity have been fluctuating from day to day. One day I would be completely functioning with just a little sniffles then the next day my head would be throbbing and I could barely understand what is going on is class because my head is hurting and the next day I have to take little breaks when I walk around because my body aches that much. I was awake late last night trying to catch up to reading assignments and finish writing my paper for my third class today, but I did not wake up on time. Yes, my class starts at 10am, but it takes more than one-hour for me to get ready for school (10 minutes), eat breakfast (10 minutes), drive to school (1-hour because I know there is traffic right now), bike (20 minutes), and run to class (3 minutes tops). I refuse to put my mind and body through that kind of stress, so I’m officially using my available sick days and taking the morning off. Technically, I’m not really taking the morning off because I still have to do my paper at home, but I need this.
All my classes allow a certain amount of absences. I am at this point in my college career where excused and unexcused absences are one in the same. The professors know life happens and things come up, so we are allowed a certain amount of absences until we reach our limit (then our grade would drop). I like that college does this because it is more realistic of the real world. It forces me to be responsible and get a few of my classmate’s contact information in the beginning of the semester. And it allows me to be an adult and reason with my decisions.
I am completely fine with my decision because I know I am a great student in class: I participate in class discussions, I turn in all my assignments and essays and online responses, and I come in prepared. So, taking this morning off for ME, is a valid decision. Aside from being sick and not wanting to rush to school, I also chose this morning to take off because midterms are over, I have a paper due before 2:30pm, and I am still a little overwhelmed and stressed about last night’s revelations.
Last night the thought of graduation and life after graduation really sunk in. I have my manual writing night class to thank for these thoughts because it constantly requires me to think about where I am going with my career with the major, skills sets, and tools that I have learned throughout college. These are my current options after undergrad: (1) go to grad school to get my Masters in Education and my teacher’s credentials (if I am accepted), (2) apply for TeachForAmerica while getting my teacher’s credentials, (3) take a gap year to work or travel (or even travel for work?! Job abroad… why not?), (4) continue to expand my blog, or (5) go for an acting/singing/dancing career while writing my first novel. Realistically, I hope to go to grad school or work for TeachForAmerica, option #4 is just my fantastical dream.
I googled this enough to know that my fear and slight-panic of life after graduation is normal. I know where I want to be, but anything can happen and I cannot control admissions into schools or whether or not I’ll get a job. However, I can control my attitude and all I can really do is be the best I can and hope for the best.